I don't know how to start this

I'm hurt, I think

I don't know

I don't know anything

Oh buddha, help me

Am I scared? kind of. Somewhat? I'm don't know!

I'm upset.

My face is red. My breathing is hard. My eyes are puffy. My heart is racing.

There is no one around me and nothing around me.

I'm alone. Shit. What am I doing here?

I'm so... so.. I really need to invent a word for this feelingless feeling.

Oh my god. I'm going insane.



Every damn thing is falling apart. Help me.

You can't help me. No one can. Can they?

I don't know. Try it.

No wait. I have to help my self.

If I can't save myself, how will I save others?

I'm drawing a blank.



I'm tearing down everything around me.

I'm hitting the walls, the desk, the grfohigrkizdgrkilg

my hands, they hurt. I don't care. They are numb now, so I keep going.

I'm screaming inside. I can't stop it.

I'm trembling. I hug myself and fall onto my knees.

I scream and start to pull my hair out.

I scratch myself. It hurts.

I can feel it, though. I don't stop.



"It's all my fault. It's all my fault" I keep whispering to myself.

A phone rings. I exit the world I'm in.

I'm back in my computer room.

I look around dumbfounded.

There's nothing else to do so I stand up.

I pick up the phone, paste a smile on my face.

"Hello?!"

It's a world of epiphanies.